see u later~
i can't be the only one who hates social interaction yet literally yearns for it so bad. i have like one friend and dont get me wrong i love talking to her but it gets a bit lonely too... when you really think about it, the idea of solitude and isolation from others is really depressing. i want to be alone, but i dont want to be alone? growing up without friends or family who can really guide you is super lonely, and its worse if you have no one to talk to. but nowadays even the idea of interacting with others seems to scare so many people (myself included) although it usually isnt so bad. starting a conversation might be a bit scary, but once its started there's really nothing to worry about. as much as i want to make friends, talking to people my age feels impossible especially considering that i've been homeschooled from kindergarten til highschool. i can't go back in time and make the friends that i didn't have, so my only choice now is to try my best to meet new people and have fun in my life while i can. at the end of the day, i don't want to be alone, not now, not ever, no matter how much i think i do.
see u later~